poem

i waited.
i cried.
i loved.
you were and always will be my everything.
i can't explain the intensity of these feelings,
but what i can say is that no matter what things will never change.
please understand where i am coming from...
my heart is forever chained to yours and the key was swallowed by our love years ago.
i wish we never were separated by the sea of regrets.
my love i send to you on a note in a bottle.
until it reaches you,
remember I'm with you as you take each breath.

Short And Sweet...

been busy.
sorry about the lack of updates...
to sum it up;
1. work
2. sleep
3. eating
4. ....

hahahaha that's about it.
hopefully I'll have time soon to add some new stuff!
Until the next time,
<3

Sad...

HA!
to inform you all my friend and I have finished half of the breakfast places in my general region and then we are moving on to the next city! Ha ha its so funny now going into a restaurant, I judge everything all of the time now. The service, the ambiance, the portions, the coffee and of course the food! Ha ha I'm just so picky now when it comes to cheap good food. it's very hard today to find good wholesome food that wont clog your arteries. I mean, yes cooking for yourself is much better then having someone else do it for you but going out to eat shouldn't be a heart attack on a plate. I don't agree with access fat or grease smeared all over my plate ready to attack every inch of my body. I'm looking for the best place to sit down, eat good food and feel comfortable.
Speaking of food I recently just saw my aunt and her boyfriend at the restaurant holly and I went to two days ago, actually it was the day of the super bowl. We ate and spoke and basically had a great time. Unfortunately my sister couldn't make it because she was away that weekend. She's planning on going away for a year on an exchange and I can't believe it. I was thinking about it the other day and how sad I'm truly going to be. she's part of my life style and I'm going to miss her so much. My mother and I were contemplating while she was gone, how lonely its going to get here without her. It literally felt like an empty void was around us and we had no way of filling it. I know that shes going to have a wonderful time and she is going to see the world...But shes my baby sister and i love her...
Anyways i think that's enough for today.
My eyes are actually starting to droop.
Until the next time,
<3

Wanna know?

hellooooo there!

Again I must apologize for my lack or entries lately...recently I've just been completely on the go. I feel like I'm driving on a endless highway, blowing off the exits to reality to see where it takes me. truly, I can't believe how quickly time passes. I sat on my porch this morning contemplating my life with my mother, so much has changed since I was 18.
I'm sorry this post is just so random, I'm just writing what's coming to my mind right now. for example...I need to do my laundry:P
Anyways, I'm quite proud of myself...I've been saving money...seeing my friends...and generally just enjoying life. I figure why be miserable when your in the best years of your life. I love my friends...love my life...I don't want to change it. I know that I have made stupid decisions in my life, but you learn from them and now that I am a little older and a little more mature I can see the difference. When I hear drama and conflict coming from people who pretty much have everything, well it upsets me a lot. People need to learn to appreciate what they have when they have it. Things could really get worse then what they are.
Changing the subject, my friend and I are still going through with critiquing the breakfast restaurants in the general region. We've actually gone to most of the places and are heading to another area soon.
I'll have to post some pictures soon.
I've been watching Dexter and weeds during my spare time.
....
Until the next time,
<3

Good People....

Today was good day, I spent it watching Dexter and then working. You know I've come to the conclusion that life isn't worth living without the ones you love...The reason I'm saying is this because as I write more I've realized that i have some really great friends I'm glad that I've associated myself with. They are people I can share my hopes and dreams with. Even when I'm in the foulest of moods they all seem to except me. Even though I'm going through changes with my life and my emotional state they all seem to care about me and I'm very grateful for it.
Through my life time i have struggled finding the right people to trust and let into my own personal little world but now I know I really do have true people I can seriously connect with. They understand, listen and "put up" with me especially when I'm not the easiest to get along with. My birthday is arriving much fasted then I have noticed and through these years of living and experiencing each one of them have taught me something that holds great value to my every day living.
I am proud to call them all my friends...
I'm sorry for this little blurb of emotion but I've had a lot of time to think lately and this subject is probably the most important thing I could possibly come up with.
I have two days off from work now and I'm quite excited.
I'll be sure to have more energy to update this blog within the next two days.
Until the next time,
<3
P.s. 5 more months till I embark on my journey to France!
I'm sooo excited, I sometimes can't contain my energy and I yelp!
ha ha ha.
Well...
Night!

Don't know what to say....

watching flight of the concords.
nothing to report.
until the next time,
<3